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I had a conversation earlier tonight with someone who's been an important part of my life for over three years, in a variety of different capacities. She expressed regret over the fact that we weren't as close as we used to be, or that our relationship had changed over time, and she wishes that it was how it used to be. (I'll say this much: it's hardest to be friends with people you've dated, because you spend your time protecting yourself from emotional involvement because you're afraid for some crazy reason you'll get sucked back in again, even if you know that neither party WANTS that to happen.)
Regret. Is it worth it? I don't think I'm someone who regrets much at all. I mean, I pretty much keep moving forward, barreling on down life's highway. Not that I don't think about what I'm doing or anything, just that I don't really stop very long to think about what could have been, because I'm so focused on the way things are or the way things could be. Or maybe it's just my current attitude on life, being unattached, free-ballin', selfless, cold, composed, all those good and nasty things.
I will say that I believe people enter into and drift out of people's lives for a variety of reasons, and that there are reasons and growth involved. People grow out of each other, people grow into each other, whatever. It's just that this bothers me that this particular person said that she regrets that we aren't friends like we used to be because I don't regret that particular thing at all, and what can I do about it? Maybe more like the specifics of this particular relationship than anything else, and I don't wanna get into details on that just yet, so I'll shut up. (By the way, for strangers snooping in--the break-up involved here is a few months old and entirely healed. It's the friendship that's clankering, not any mislaid feelings that are lingering around.)
Walked into Dr. Wax today, walked out with 3 new CD's: a They Might Be Giants EP that I'd been looking for since God knows when, an old Jam album, and a disc from a local band called the Pulsars. The Pulsars pick up where new wave left off and take it a step higher using new technology and some old technology. Lotsa cool melodies, clever lyrics, and some really nifty horn parts provided by the famous Herb Alpert of Tijuana Brass fame. Even at this early stage, it comes highly recommended. The TMBG disc is okay, and the Jam disc is taking some time to get into.
Off to bed for me. Have good days if you're reading this, and if not, rot in Hell!